its another dreary night after my pw.. the massive blood sucker.. just had a lil prob with my bf... i duno man.. i mean.. i cant afford to lose him.. but there are times when i am not happy... and i duno if i will sound like some silly bitch or wilful girlfriend. so i rather not start. so that i have no qualms in stopping myself..

afterall... dont guys always hate demanding girlfriends? i mean, for eg, FOR EXAMPLE ONLY ARH, that ur bf has like, tons of female friends, and u dont see him everyday. u go online all just becoz u wanna talk to him, see him online.. talk to him only.. but he talks to alot of ppl, and you never know who he is talking to too. and having female friends is not a sin right?! so its like.. u'd just feel kinda weird dont u? i mean. ppl tell me never to go complaining to ur bf about stuffs like, 'why u gg out with this girl?' or 'who's that? who's that?' like being so demanding... i duno man... i just know tat, if i were a guy, and i had a gf, if i were merely talking to my female pals about things under the sun, and my gf makes a fuss, i might flip a little..

and the problem is... i dont like hissy fits and i never can control mine. so its better not to even start throwing any fits right? afterall, trivial matters are a waste of time.. or so..
i think.

to tell the truth, i duno wat trivial or mega matters really are.
all i know is. i hate trouble and problems.
and my best way to run away from it...
silly and unfortunately, portrayal of cowardice... but.. well... u never know wat the consequences are... so.. wouldnt it be like taking a gamble and putting the relationship at risk?

afterall, i cant afford to lose what i have.
i dont want to.