Gift from joyce :D

同樣的話說好多遍 我的擔心妳很瞭解
但愛像糾結的毛線 得一天一點慢慢解

我會永遠在妳身邊 但我不能說妳都對
他為了什麼要告別 其實已不是重點

一顆心飛走的時候　
兩個人的擁抱 都讓人想淚流

以前妳很快樂 什麼都告訴我
妳後來為什麼 要自己一個默默痛著
太聰明就想太多 越倔強越沒路走
我懂得 妳怕我難過 捨不得

以前妳曾說過 灑脫才能自由
陪著我看日落 再陪我聊到天空亮了
別拉著他的衣袖 就讓我牽妳的手
夢想的 下一個幸福 就快來了

妳抬頭是天空 妳還有好朋友
陪著妳唱情歌 再陪妳聊到心又暖了
別拉著他的衣袖 就讓我牽妳的手
完美的 下一個幸福 就快來了

妳也許想回頭 妳也許還會寂寞　
我一定陪著走過

the most hilarious thing happened.

a kid asked me out on a date?
how weird is tat!

he's the son of sum big shot in maybank actually.
rich kid.
he's 17 this yr.. passed his 17 bday.
though we are same age.
i cant help it but keep thinking bout how young he is.
lol

though we are like, total clones in taste of music.
but..
he's got so much growing up to do.

sometimes, u see a guy and u immediately know tat he is like, super not a man yet.

he's a kid man...
gosh its really so funny..
i admit i had a little crush on him.. well. it wasnt a crush.. mistook it for a crush..

but its so not gonna happen man..
goodnes..

should i or should i not?

hmmm...
i'm in desperate need of money.
i need money fast.
should i make a blogshop for sprees? but money wont come in easily...
its gonna be super taxing for me coz i'll be studying and all...
i'll have to do alot of admin....

meet up with ppl...
sianz man..
u guys know how i hate the public and having to go all over the world...

these days in the office is so boring..
there isnt much to be done. and we ended up chatting the whole day thru..
its amazing tat we actually found so much to talk about. LOL

i ended up using MSpaint in the shitty comp to make some stuffs...

i actually did so many more stuffs with the computer la... but i only took pics of these.
will upload soon though..
u guys know how hard it is to draw with a mouse right? especially when its so difficult to even draw a circle!
so yea. i managed to fishes ok? tats pretty much an achievement for me alrdy!

i've been trying pretty hard to slim down..
not tat hard..trying to run almost everyday for an hr.
did work abit... lost a little teeeny weeny bit of weight.

maybe gonna go running again tmr.
morning.
coz i skipped tonight's run.
i was FAMISHED AND TIRED!!!!
coz i couldnt chew, i only managed to shove down a tortilla wrap in the morning, swallowing most of the mouthfuls unmasticated and whole. all i could manage was to rip off pieces of my wrap and was on the verge of choking the whole time. was in a total rush too.
gulped down my coffee and totally ran out of the house.

and at work, during lunch, the sight of the only foods tat i could eat totally turned me off.
i soooo swear i'm not eating tat porridge again.. i dont hate it. i'm just sick of salty liquids.

and i had no choice..
i had a bowl of dessert.
some sweet shit.
i got hungry within 2 hrs.
wth?
so when i got home. i was so effing hungry and weak.
zzzzzzzz
omg, i havent had my medicine yet..
GAHHHH!H!!!
i cant seem to remember things like tat.

wisdom sucks when it comes in the form of a tooth.
my jaws are gonna snap any moment!!!!!!!!!!!!
i went to the dentist and he called it the naughty tooth.
LOL
gum infection plus a growing tooth.
i'm living on baby food man!!!!

sometimes, its just so hard to ignore.
so hard to forget.
so hard to let go.

i thought i did let go..
but it seems that my mind is holding on to those last few tiny bits and pieces that i can still find along the way..

you stick out like a sorethumb everywhere!
your smell,
your likes, dislikes.
news about u, tat eventhough i PRETENDED to be not bothered by it.
still,
i'm not an oscar winning actress.
i still see u sometimes in my dreams.
sometimes, we were holding hands, smiling at each other.
sometimes, i was just watching u.

punctual as a clock,
u visit everyday, even as i go jogging.
so many times i've ran with streaming tears.
everytime i pass by the opposite canal, i tot abt our secret rendezvous tat night. the one season finale of us. the final parting words u left me 'i'm gonna see u again, i swear'.
stings of a thousand honeyed explatives.
when those terrifyingly beautiful words still chime in my ears.
hauntingly bitter aftertastes.
i was no better than the world's greatest fool to believe that u'd do good ur words.
when i knew you had brought along with u the door tat u've left from.


wat am i doing all this for?
for whom am i doing all this for?
how many hundreds of pages of my diary was dedicated to u?
i lost count.

i want to look like that tortured angel just like u did.
i want to show you how pea-sized ur lifetime of sufferings are compared to mine.

i want you to crumble just like i did.
lose hope in everything.
feel so alone.
when u wake up, u realise there's no one there anymore.
how difficult it is to mould into the new sorry life.
how hard it was to hear ur name and even u being happy!
how i'd stiffen whenever u come online.
how i couldnt smile again.
how much stabbing pains straight through my heart when i finally decided it was time to delete all those pictures. the sweeter they are, the tougher it was to bear the pain.
how many buckets i sweared i've shed just for u.

but of coz it'll never happen.
for,
i loved you too much,
you love me too little too less.

i'm sinking every minute.hardly any air left in my screaming lungs. let me drown and die. i dont want to know whether u'll come and save me in the end. because the truth hurts too much for me to live.

you're going on an escapade. but how could u leave me burning in hell?

CONGRATS TO EUDY WHO MADE IT INTO HER COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hip HIP HOOORAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

went to city plaza today.
this is where most blogshop owners get their stuffs from.
yes.
to sell to ppl like u or me..
of the whole place.
i only found one or two shops that was worth taking a look at.
the others were just pure junk and loads of crappy crinkled sewing.
i got bored pretty fast.
Far east would be a better place to shop if i seriously have to shop for cheaper clothings.

after tat, i went to tanglin mall..
god..
it feels so long since i've last been here..
i loved tanglin mall ever since i was born.
coz when i was younger, my mom made extreme efforts to make our lives more 'her'. which means, english.
well she's graduated from a london fashion school.. i mean literally in london.
so i'm brought up pretty much the way she lived there.
she always loved to bring us to holland village, tanglin mall, anywhere that spells out 'ANG MOH'

so we did our grocery shopping there. and had tea at a small cafe.
omg la!!!!!!!
the lemon meringue pie is to die for man!!!!!!!!!!
plus the cup of delicious smelling black coffee with no sugar and no milk at all...
the combination is F.A.B.U.L.O.U.S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.. i love my pastries..
the walnut brownie was OKAY..
not tat beathe taking.
the pie was like an awesome smack in the face breeze..
woohooo......~~~~~~~~~!!!

its so funny..
how life works..

back when campus superstar first started out.
the very first,
there was a guy called alejandro.
i heard him sing and was soo WOWed by him.

good looks,
good voice.

wats not to like!?

and i came to jc. and saw him!
i found him!!!!!!
i once saw him only on tv! and now he's in my school!!!!

and i joined choir, HIS CCA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL.. i was pretty happy though.
and now, i have his msn..
so weird right?

life is incredible how our paths always cross :D

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I'll see.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see, lyricstop
And you'll realise that you love me.

Yeah...
Yeah...

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the frist thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...