i'm doing the report for the ivm assignment thingy..
which reminds me of last friday.. gah... why must every presentation i do be so blah?
i hate presentations. its some weird part in me tat i just have to tune to monotonous mode when i have to be part of the limelight. wats wrong with me...

for many grps, it was a blast for them i think, coz they did so well? there goes my diploma plus, (which i clearly am not ready to kiss goodbye to). what else am i supposed to do? god...

i need some divine intervention to start tat thing kicking in me again. where did that old chloe go.... it must be left somewhere... gah...

stuck at home at this hour...
when i could have been at pasir ris park at alvin and azri's birthday bbq.
but i had to stay ard with my aunt all day...
my uncle wanted to divorce my aunt. like wtf? he suddenly told her that by saturday, she'll have to say whether she wants a divorce or not.
AND, he searched thru her stuffs, taking most of her jewellery. wtf right? end up she had to safeguard the remaining jewellery with her..

i'm so worried sick for her man...
she was my nanny when i was young, my second mom when i got older.

i duno what will become of her man....
we spent the day tgt, she had to put her jewelleries in my house.

i really dont know wat happens next...
tat asshole called up my other aunt and complained tat my aunt was not having sex with him, and told my other aunt to go persuade her to have sex with him. LIKE WTF?! why are u saying stuffs like tat to ppl? must u tell the whole world that u guys are not having sex?
calling my house just to complain about my aunt when she obviously have not done anything wrong?!

at mid day, he called us and said he got his brother at their house to talk it out.
hello?! who was the one who wanted a divorce?!
and he bought a bottle of XO for my uncle(my mom's eldest brother), claiming that it was just one of the many collection he has at home. but my uncle found out that it was bought from 7eleven. wth, its so funny coz it must have costed a bomb. LOL he deserved it.

i dont know wat the fuck is wrong with him, threatening her all the time. and my dad? he didnt even offer to let her come stay with us. but even if he do.. i doubt she will...
she looks so tired now...
like really fed up of everything...
my mom told her to watch out, in case my uncle tries to murder her.
and she told us that she alrdy adopted the habit of locking the door everynight. she slps in her son's room btw..

i keep thinking tat as long as she stays in tat house, she's at a risk of being killed....

i'm so scared...

serena: i'm scared

dan: i know me too

serena: well its too bad to hear that its over

dan: i think, i think it was alrdy, it just took us this long to realise.. and get used to this idea

*kisses** serena steps out of the elevator

dan: serena, i still..

serena: i know.. i do

elevator door closes with dan in it.

serena: i love you

i cant wait to see wat lies ahead of this road..
i'm actually looking forward to the future for the first time.

NO PRIVACY NO PRIVACY NO PRIVACY

you guys should see this
its incredible!!!!

小学篱笆旁的蒲公英
The dandelions at a bamboo fence of the primary school

十几英里有味道的风景
Several miles of a beautiful landscape

雾水草场传来她的声音
The fogged watery grass place passed on her voice

多少年后也开始很好听
Many years later it still started to be good to hear

将愿望折纸飞机寄出信
Just wish the folded aeroplane paper will put out the truth

因为我们等不到那流星
It is because we can’t wait for that meteor

等枕头坠离命运的引力
Waiting the pillow to fall by the gravitation of destiny

却不知道到底能去哪里
Yet don’t know where it is able to go

Chorus:

已经长大的约定 那样清晰
A grown up promise, that much clear

拿过到的我相信
Holding it through until I believe

说好要一起旅行
Agreed to travel together

是你如今 唯一坚持的任性
Now it is you solely, who strong headedly insist

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在走廊想霸占她手心
wanted to seize her palm at the passage

我们却注意窗边的情敌
Yet we paid attention to the love rival at the window side

我去到哪里你都跟很紧
Wherever I go, you are so close with me

哼歌而梦在等待着惊喜
Humming songs and dreams, while waiting for surprise

Chorus:

已经长大的约定 那样清晰
A grown up promise, so clear

拿过到的我相信
Holding it through until I believe

说好要一起旅行
Agreed to travel together

是你如今 唯一坚持的任性
Now it is you solely, who strong headedly insist

已经长大的约定 那样珍惜
A grown up promise, that much valueable

与你聊不完的曾经
something to do with the incomplete talk you said that moment

而我已经分不清 你是友情
Yet I already can’t differ, you are friendship

还是错过的爱情
Or the wronged love

man.. another project this time. by friday must present. sian la..i had presentations.. i dont like to jump out in the crowd and start stammering coz i knw i will.. we're supposed to do like a case study on 3 levels of retail stores. like chanel, zara, cottonon. sumthing like tat.. so last friday was like the day of the field trip but well, the thing is, we're gg without our teacher. so its like...
no school on friday.
and tmr, should have been an independent study day. but due to the proj, have to spend whole day at suntec with my friends to do the proj.
i hope we manage to do some stuffs.
coz i really wanna do well in this course...
i need my diploma plus.. if tats what u call it...

i miss winnie suddenly....
sighs...
and i just wasted another day....
watching gossip girls...
goodness.. that show is soooo good...
i duno wat the hell was i doing not watching it earlier!
chuck and nat are super damn hot!!!!!!
DAN TOO! but after wiking season 1's storyline(sorry, i couldnt help it)
i found out tat dan is the jerk after all.
sooooo
i dont like dan anymore...
HAHA

GG RULEZ!!!!!

Question
what is the purpose of life (questions and answers )about it

Answer
Most modern philosophers who are in the Anglo-American tradition, and many who are in the Continental tradition, would ask you, in response to your question, at least two others:

1.) What is it that makes you think life either has a purpose or needs one?

2.) If you could state a purpose for life, and it was imposed from above, would that not compromise your freedom? If it were not imposed from above, you make a set of choices of goals, none of which, with near certainty, would be your life's sole purpose. (The point is that there is nothing that says that there can be only one purpose to a life.

Ponder these two questions, and I think you will abandon any worries about finding the purpose of life.

hello ppl who actually read my blog!
i am blogging from my school!!!!
well i mean i'm in school. using the school's internet.
and my friends are tryin to get me to play viwawa with them..
its like abit lame leh...
but anything la
just play loh.
SO FUNNY.
i now playing the song 'nobody but you' -wondergirls.
LOL, and weehow cant pay attention to his game. LOL
HE IS HUMMING OUT THE SONG BESIDE!
LOLROFL

and they are playing dai ti.wth is tat?!
HAHA..
i talk on msn no one reply me sia..
duno the connection or wat.
the connection like fuck loh...
so sianed...
nothing to do...

i see my classmates all publicising their blogs..
though i felt like i want to put my link onto my nick or as my personal message.
still...
i just felt like i want a piece of private life for myself.

i want a camera.
a big black colour one.. those nikon hardcore kinds.

i wanna take pictures.
i wanna.
i wanna do so many things.

i wish.
i wish i was as busy as some of my classmates.
busy having fun.
busy doing sumthing cool.

GOD DAMNED IT CAN SUMBODY HAND ME A BLOODY CAMERA?!

okayyyyyy...
now..
i have so much things on my list...
the
TO DOs
&
TO BUYs

azri and alvinder invited me to their bbq bday 'party' which will be on 30th may.
and well, my mom said yes..
and welll....
ahmad's going.
i'm still disturbed by the fact that i'd be facing him during the whole bbq. though alvin promised me i'd be too busy to even notice.
but then..

i duno...
i'd be too unglam.
i duno why...
i'm not skinny.
i'm definately not pretty.
SO....








its a god damned barbeque.. at pasir ris park...
where ppl wear....
-____-" bikinis......


how ego boosting by the time i get there....
i wish i weigh like... 45kg right now...
SERIOUSLY...
totally out of the question....





GAHHHHH...
I'M SO FUCKING WORRIED!!!!!


he'll be there...
i'm not worried tat i cant impress him.
i'm worried i'd look like a slob. A BLOB.
like.. omg, juggernaut appeared.
u get wat i mean?
i'm his ex..
i'm supposed to improve with times.....


gah......

i got my money out of tat tin alrdy. haha
i use this really large knife like thing.
then the whole tin really look very cui by the end of it.
LOL.

and u know...
i love my frens.
but i am the kind tat, unless u are my bf or my lesbian gf, (which will never happen)
i wouldnt want to be talking to u every possible minute of the day.
i have my own life. i dont want to report to u all the time as if u are my bf.

CHRIS IS STRANGLING MY NECK!!!!!
as in..
he smses me all day, as if he's my bf.
he's just a fren. goodness.
if u are a girl, i wouldnt mind. well, at least we are best frens.
but he's a boy!?
and 26 yrs old.....
i love frens.. but not half here and there kind...
i wont calll him a best fren.
he's like a brother..
but even brothers and sisters give each other breathing space....
DONT SMS ME ALL DAY!!!! I'M TIRED OF ALL THAT CRAP SIA!!!!!!

SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i put my money into my coin bank.. as in quite alot sia!!!
end up?
the bloody tin was so thick tat i couldnt open it at all...
bloody hell man......
how sia...
i was knocking it everywhere and blah...
there wasnt even a single hole..

okay!!!!!
this is my first blog post.
USING MY NEW LAPTOP!!!!
ok la... not much hoo haa coz its like the cheapest one ard...
well...
i'll work harder for a mac book pro..
meantime...
this is wat i'll have to make do with..
its an acer...
not very impressive huh..
haha..
watever.
i think its cool though...
wat a great big jump from my old hag..
its sitting by my window now..LOL
alone..