okayyyyyy...
now..
i have so much things on my list...
the
TO DOs
&
TO BUYs

azri and alvinder invited me to their bbq bday 'party' which will be on 30th may.
and well, my mom said yes..
and welll....
ahmad's going.
i'm still disturbed by the fact that i'd be facing him during the whole bbq. though alvin promised me i'd be too busy to even notice.
but then..

i duno...
i'd be too unglam.
i duno why...
i'm not skinny.
i'm definately not pretty.
SO....








its a god damned barbeque.. at pasir ris park...
where ppl wear....
-____-" bikinis......


how ego boosting by the time i get there....
i wish i weigh like... 45kg right now...
SERIOUSLY...
totally out of the question....





GAHHHHH...
I'M SO FUCKING WORRIED!!!!!


he'll be there...
i'm not worried tat i cant impress him.
i'm worried i'd look like a slob. A BLOB.
like.. omg, juggernaut appeared.
u get wat i mean?
i'm his ex..
i'm supposed to improve with times.....


gah......